Dear Brooklyn,

if i could tell you how wonderful being in love is, i would write you a greek epic. Brennan let me rant about having a bad day and he left me a present to make me feel better. He knows my favorite flowers and my favorite tea, he knows everything about me. i love him. im in love with him. and im the kind of person who believes that we all get one person to fall in love with. just one person, one chance. he’s my one. i miss you as every day passes on. i can’t wait to see you. i love you. and i am still trying to be happy. dont worry life goes on, and so shall i. see you soon my flower.
love to the end and back
Manhattan

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Dear Brooklyn,

I am so incredibly happy for you. Love now is so rare and deeply beautiful, and I can only begin to comprehend how wonderful it feels for you. Despite my best efforts it seems that I am slowly beginning to open up to Brennan again and I can only say that with each day I feel happier and happier. Unfortunately for a while the world has been growing darker and darker. I feel no joy anymore unless I’m wrapped up in him i feel nothing. Its sad really… I used to feel everything and I used to explore and fight and grow, however now, I am sad to say that that is over. I feel separated from everyone now. The only other people I find myself enjoying being around are Kaylee, Marcelese, and Cole. I see you everywhere like a ghost haunting my memory and good god I miss you. Good God its getting dark for me. I no longer scream the praises of the world but rather have unfortunately come to crave carving the misdoings of it into my own skin. I always used to love scars but now i hate them. I hate every one of them, luckily there are only four to hate because Brennan has gotten into the habit of checking my wrists when I’m not looking and he kisses them and I don’t like that because it makes his mouth dirty. However sad this may seem i promise you this is not a cry for help it is a cry to rejoice. From the broken and the damned can come many a wonderful thing so hopefully i can do something wonderful. I promise i am trying to be better. I promise i am trying to be myself. I promise i am trying. I can feel the eyes of everyone on me constantly. I have had anxiety attacks since school started and one managed to drift into a full blown mental breakdown. Cole handled it very well luckily. Honestly, I am so so so sad all the god damn time I really wonder if i was always like this. Maybe. I mean I can be happy. There are times when I really really am you know? But they come far and few between. But brennan, when he’s with me it feels better. I am better you know? i guess maybe thats why we are together. I really love him. Like more than i can admit to myself. He’s so full of life and so beautiful. His eyelashes, and when hes asleep. How when i have a nightmare instead of asking and turning lights on he just pulls me closer and whispers that its okay, and that hes here, and that he loves me. And i feel so safe and so loved and i feel like the real me when im with him. And I just hope he knows how much he is to me. I will be okay. I am so grateful for you and for your happiness. Don’t ever loose that okay? Its important.
Until soon,
love forever,
love always,
Manhattan

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well okay

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Q: Is she living in the Valencia apt ones?

i have no idea shes just gonna do her own thing man idk


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Q: Does she live on campus?

not anymore like you have to live on campus first year then after that you dont have to and she moved somewhere


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